How worry-less the man sleeps How carefree he snores; Not promised a tomorrow, Yet, in peace he snorts.
Doesn’t bother for what is meant for tomorrow, He is filled with the words of today; This man is lost and twined deep, In today’s worldly wishes.
Sometimes he sleeps content, Sometimes he sleeps grumpy, However in the moment he sleeps, He forgets all his worries…
Written at midnight, when I couldn’t sleep tight Cause of all the nightmares from when I could sleep..
I wrote this poem on 13th October @02:14 am, when even in the darkness, I couldn’t shut my eyes and have some peace. When all my worries surrounded me and I felt helpless. When I was scared, even to sleep, because I didn’t want nightmares; and so the only solution I’d found was to stay awake through the entire night (Although I did doze off later on 😅😴😪)
The birth of the day After the death of night The conquering of light Over the darkest times
I see the sun rise And I see it shine I see it take over dark, I see it light everything in its path.
It has lit all around me With its glimmering light Wish it could light me too But I guess I’ve gone too dark; Too dark even for majestic king, the sun to light
At times I sit, in my dark pit, I sit there and I think Will I ever be able to light in this world? Or will my darkness be gone Only after consuming my life?
They say “A new spring follows every winter” They say “A new day comes after every dark night” But it feels like I am trapped in the south pole Where winter last for all eternity; And it feels like I am stuck in an endless night And there’s no escape.
I fell vulnerable; And I am desperate, Desperate to see the light, light my way So I can see a new day And smell a new spring
I wanna escape, but I feel like a prisoner; I wanna fly, but my wings have been cut; I wanna run, but my legs are tied; I wanna scream, but my throat is dry;
It’s getting hard in here to breathe And I can’t even properly think I am suffocating; But I don’t wanna lose cause I wanna prove: that I am not a “coward”
I wanna rise from my pit And breathe deep and speak I wanna rest and I wanna sleep Away from the hassle, I wanna live in peace Don’t want my mind to be disturbed, Don’t wanna see nightmares anymore or cry for hours and hours more.
I just wanna be free Free of everything that’s killing me And I wanna get rid of the voice within and speak for myself and be free
So I’m gonna try and try and not give up, until the victory is mine
So that one day, I can scream: “I Win, I Win” to all the voices that said in my head that “I’d lose”
Sometimes, the biggest fights we fight are with none other than ourselves and the voices in our head.
I remember that day as if it were yesterday. That day when I made a choice. A choice that changed it all. I sometimes wonder would my life now be different if I’d made a contrasting decision? If I had pressed NO, would things have gone differently? for the good? or not? However, now there’s no way of finding out, cause what I’ve done can’t be undone.
That morning I was as fresh as the human body could get and my blood was as cold as blood can go without freezing.
I was ready with my desktop, waiting for my MS Results. And contrary to the human behaviour, I wasn’t scared at all : I was prepared for it. I was confident that I was gonna do well. Still, my results “not so surprisingly” exceeded my expectations when I ranked first in my entire state. I was happy for my score but not so enthusiastic for the attention.
And so, the day passed by, with the warm wishes of congratulations by many known and unknown. I received at least a fifty “Congratulations” from my family and fellow comrades and some strangers, via calls, dms, whatsapp messages etc., but none of them stood out as ‘that email’, the one I received in the dark hours of the night. The email without a subject.
I have heard how a single encounter in people’s life can change their life completely, like a miracle. And my encounter with this email was the “miracle of my life”. It truly was the turning point.
I have embedded a screenshot of that email in my post below, that you can check out, however I’m not sure as to how long it will be visible, so if you get to see it while it’s still on there, then I guess good for you👍. I have blurred out the personal information of course:
Known the earth and walked it’s path; Now it’s time to go afar, See the new lands to explore Somewhere very far from home.
Put on seatbelts and a suit, Packed in a jet, take off to the moon. Travel far into the multiverse, Travel far out of my universe.
Make friends with an alien mate, Go back in time to change my fate Find a black hole, Ace the speed of light; Travel back to a dark night.
Turn back time, a couple weeks before, when one decision changed it all; The decision that cause my fall.
No regrets, just reverse and rewind Back to the life I’d left behind….
Hey, there! I haven’t really posted much recently. This is mainly due to the fact that lately I’ve not been feeling to write much, because lately I’ve been overthinking a lot on the mistakes that I’ve done, mistakes that the “silly me” has done. Like once a 10-11 year old me lied to my teacher that I’d forgot my book because I was out last night. These silly mistakes now make me have guilt and regrets. This is also something that you’ll see I’ve reflected on in this poem. So, hope you enjoyed reading!
This is also my first collab with a very dear friend of mine, also a great thinker and versatile writer, Devangi. Devangi is like my friend, philosopher and guide, and the best part is that we both enjoy writing. This poem is first of the four activities we’ve planned, in which we’ve both written something inspired by the pics we sent each other. So now you know the where the Inspiration photo comes from. Do also check what Devangi has written inspired by the pics I’ve sent her. And also check out her blogging site, where she uploads poems, articles and many more.