She has changed, she had to…

She looks different now, not the same old girl.
She is different now, not the same old person
She looks beautiful now, but not as comfortable

All she wanted is attention,
But she never got any,
She wanted to be happy
But she couldn’t be

Wasn’t what she wanted,
But she had no choice
She wished to be accepted
But she never was

All the others teased her
And they said her mean words
She did best to ignore them
But she couldn’t do

Now you see her smiling,
But inside she’s crying
Wasn’t what she wanted,
But, she had no choice

She was at the edge of breaking
And every night she was crying
She went through depression
And took a lot pills

She wasn’t shrewd
But more terrified
Everyone taunted her
And Everything haunted her

And that is what forced her to be
And that is what forced her to change

She didn’t want to fit in,
But just wanted to be accepted
She was scared of being an outcast
And she only wanted to be loved

Now some judge her for being changed
But before she was judged for being the same
And although she never wanted to change
She had no choice

She just wanted to be happy
But she couldn’t be

She looks different now, not the same old girl.
She is different now, not the same old person
She looks beautiful now, but not as comfortable

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I got the idea to write this poem, in regards to the personal experience I’ve had.
Such as at times when people have said to me that I looked like a “nice girl”, when I put on a dress and makeup, and whilst this is a purely generous compliment, in the teenage years for me it became a goal to always put on makeup and wear nice dresses whenever going out only because I always wanted to be considered a ‘nice girl’.

It has become the trend of the time, especially with all the stereotypes, that girls have to fit in and be a certain way : they must wear dresses and put on makeup etc. to be well-accepted by peers.
While it’s said that people’s opinion about you shouldn’t matter to you and that you should just be “you”, sometimes we just want to fit in right? I mean no one likes being an “outcast” or being teased for not being “girly” enough………….right?

Thanks for reading! Hope you enjoyed it! See ya next week 🙂